Well, hello everyone.

3 weeks ago i went for an ultrasound to check on my baby. I was 7 weeks at that time. When i was 4 weeks, they found i had a subchorionic hemorrhage which was causing bleeding and they put me on pelvic rest. Well at that 7 week ultrasound, my baby was gone. I mean the sac was there. The yoke sac was there. But the baby and his little fetal pole were gone. I had just seen it the week before! Turns out i was lucky enough to find out early on that i was having a missed miscarriage. So they said they were 99% sure the baby was reabsorbed into me and that i would pass the rest within a month. I kept holding on to that 1% chance my baby would be ok. But today. Today has been so painful. So messy. I just wanna lay in bed and cry. My kids, 6 and 4, want to know why mommy is bleeding. Why mommy is crying. How do i tell them that our baby is gone? My husband is at work and im all alone. I feel all alone. What did i do wrong? This is our second miscarriage since we got married in April. We did everything we were supposed to. We stopped drinking. Stopped smoking. We lost weight. I say we because we did it together. We have been a team since day one. Why is this happening to us?! Im trying to be strong but all i can seem to do is cry. Cry everytime we go to walmart and pass the baby section. I had to take a break from facebook because i would cry at all my friends' posts on thier pregnancy and new babys. Why do i feel so alone.