In need of advice

mariah

I was out with my husband and two kids to eat out since he got off early and he works a lot. I thought why not? His eyes were else where I kept looking at him and he kept looking behind me. There was a woman behind me he was just staring it made me feel uncomfortable to the point I didn't want to eat anymore. I kept thinking am I ugly? Is my attention not valued? I didn't say anything. But then he wanted to hug me and kiss me. I couldn't I felt disgusted with him. Am I in the wrong? He wanted me to tell him what was wrong because I wouldn't kiss him,but I couldn't. Why? What was it going to solve I thought. Anyway it ended up coming out. I told him. He said that I am just insecure and what not and I need to stop acting like that because he was listening in on the conversation. Apparently the men was talking to the waitress. The men was talking about cheating on their wives or whatever. I can't shake this feeling. Just that he told me I need to change. I don't trust my husband and idk how to trust him. What do I do???