I’m so happy with my husband and step son... but here’s the thing.

We get his son every week, Bio mom gets him every other weekend. He is 11 and a daddy’s boy and he is such a sweetheart, I always make sure that he knows he is loved by his dad and I and his mom and I’m very supportive of his relationship with his mom, but I have takin a role as his mom and he relies on me as a mom.

My husband is extremely supportive of him getting attached to me but is also very supportive of his ex wife’s relationship with his son.. which is good and I’m so very proud of him for that😁

But after picking up school supplies and being so proud and I love this kid so much, I started to think about the details that I wish I had, I can’t take him to a doctor because I’m not his mom and I couldn’t enroll him into school without his dad and while I fully respect the parentship and no disrespect to his mother but it just saddens me so much and I love this child like my own and that won’t change but i so badly want my own that I can be real mom and experience parenthood fully, I want to be pregnant so bad and I even thought about adopting a young child I want to be a mother.. the constant Lonely arms feeling is so depressing😢 .. any way just venting