I can't get you out of my head... Not for a second. I try to move on and then an old song comes on and I find myself crying in the car on my way to work. Sometimes I replay that day in my head to see if I could have done something to make you turn around and kiss me like you used to... You honestly just didn't care, you found something better, or so you thought... That didn't last long now did it? The wound is still fresh though and I know if you texted me right now saying that you wanted me back, as much as I shouldn't, I'd let myself fall because there was nothing that could make me smile like when you would hold me and kiss my forehead. My mom kind of hates you and I wish she didn't, she doesn't realize that I am still completely in love with you, I had to let go a little because the pain was killing me, you asked if I was jealous, I said no but if course I am. I used to be her... And I want it back with all my heart and as I'm saying this I know there is someone in my life that loves me the way I love you and I want to have feelings for him and I think that if I wasn't so hung up on you, I would... But you're texting me and telling me that you're so alone and that you don't have anyone and I tell you I'm here for you, I'm always here for you but it hurts in the deepest part of my chest to know that you don't want me. It stupid, I know... That's why I can't tell you. Did what you said mean nothing though? Forever and Always. You knew the levels of that. And I'm still holding that promise, the promise that you broke. I will love you forever and I will be there always. We were in love for over a year. The things we went through were increadible and I trusted you with a damaged piece of me and you cared for it for so long... I just want to know why you don't care anymore, you still remind me to eat, you ask me how I'm feeling and act like you care but you know me, you know when I'm not okay and I can see in your eyes when you look at me that you know that I'm hurting. You are ashamed... That's why I never got an explanation as to why we went from sneaking into public bathrooms because we were just two kids in love doing the dumbest stuff together to you dating a girl that smokes and has the IQ of a squirrel... You were too good for her... And when I asked who she was and you said just a friend I trusted you so I didn't ask anymore. I can still remember your voice saying "don't worry baby, I only need you" that was three days before you left me. You didn't mean anything you told me. Was it all an act to get me to do what you wanted? I bought you stuff... That jacket was $150 but I get it anyway because of how much you wanted it. And to see your smile when I gave that to you it was so worth it, I did things with you that I've been to shy to even talk about with anyone else... You are my whole world. Forever and always, I promise