I gave my first child up for adoption. I was very young, I had nothing, I was dealing with some demons and I was unable to be the mother that baby deserved and so I made a tough decision.

My family never agreed with it and have pretty much shut me out completely since then.

Fast forward to now, several years later I’m 26, married to a wonderful man, we have a home together and live comfortably. I’m due with our daughter in 4 days. Last night on Facebook I see my mother, my grandmother and my aunt talking about me saying I should not be able to have my baby, and making fun of me because of the adoption.

Im so hurt. Im not proud of the fact that I gave up my first child but I don’t want to feel ashamed of it either. I did the best that I could. I still deal with a lot of guilt and this pregnancy has definitely brought that out in a new way. But being so close to the end I just want to feel excitement to meet my daughter and now I feel like I don’t deserve her. It crushed me. Thanks for reading.