Periods are due on 15th . Time is passing very slowly. I don’t want to test before 20 . I don’t want to keep high hopes but I don’t want to be hopeless either . I’m full of anxiety. Feeling very sad, stressful .

Questions coming in my mind

What if my periods show up

I will be shattered

How will I cope up with it

I’m praying all the time

I hope God is listening to me

I’ve a plan to go to my home country end of this year

I want to go with a good news

My family knows we are ttc

I want to spend some time with my family when I’m pregnant as I’m alone here with only husband

Ttc is so hard

Will God really help me ? God loves me that I know for sure