My son is 3 weeks old, and yesterday I reached my breaking point with breastfeeding and pumping. I realized it's too much work for me..and my mental health has started to get affected by it. I have had one thing after another happen..from a retained placenta that I found out about 1 week after birth..and my son not getting a drop from me because of it, causing him to lose 12% of his body weight in that week. To then finding out that second week that he had a tongue tie..got it fixed 5 days after that. Due to my son not latching right for almost 2 weeks, my supply was extremely low. Getting half an ounce combined & had to supplement with formula. I started pumping every 2 hours during the day & every 3 hours in the night (just so I could get SOME sleep). After a week of this, along with lactation treats..lots of body armor/water, oatmeal for breakfast every day my supply only went up the smallest amount..getting 1oz combined. And those were the times I was not putting my son to the breast, because my nipples needed to heal. I was switching off every other feeding between him painfully latching/feeding & the pump. I've been basically pinned to my couch and it started getting to a point where I was literally not taking care of myself..the house looks like shit, we've been grabbing clean clothes from laundry baskets all week long, dirty laundry is piling up quick..my kids want to go do things and it's difficult for me. My husband works all day..so it's just me and the kids until right after labor day when they go back to school and I just feel so overwhelmed. Yesterday I broke down and just decided to quit. Started giving him only bottles of formula & pumped just a little bit only when my breasts felt too full. I thought I'd feel better..and maybe I will...but I've been sad going through crying fits all day about it. Before anyone asks, I have seen multiple lactation consultants through my hospital and they have not been very helpful. They say his latch looks good but it hurts so bad and my nipples always come out of his mouth compressed. I don't think they are supposed to be flattened...but the lactation consultants never said anything about it. I would assume he's not getting anything if he's literally making my nipples flat..which then brings me to my final worry of "is he even getting anything?...am I starving him like I did during his first week?.." Yesterday morning i was so happy to hear him actually gulping and afterwards he was content for about 5 minutes and then started acting hungry again. This is after about a half hour on only one boob, emptying it. I just don't know what to do, but I'm worried if I try to go back to it..I already screwed it up by not pumping or breastfeeding for 24 hours..and my already low supply when I was actually trying is going to be nothing now. Half of me knows I'll be better off if I completely quit..and the other half is screaming at me to just hang in there. I'm not against formula, my other 2 kids were on it..but this is my last baby and I just really wanted to breastfeed.