I am 17 years old and a highschool dropout. I guess I'll start with that.

I was never popular, I had a couple friends but I never ever truly fit in. My anxiety eventually overtook my life. I would cry every morning before school, I would have panic attacks during school. Overall my high school experience was terrible. It came to a point where I would rather die than go. So, I dropped out.

But at first that wasn't the plan. I intended on unenrolling from my public school and enrolling in online school. But nobody would accept me. So I had to come up with a plan. GED makes sense, right? Right. Well, since I'm 17 I would need to take classes before I could take the test. I have no way of getting there (because I don't have my license or a car & my mom works the hours that the classes are). So I have to wait until I am 18. (October)

As for a job. Same problem. I feel so stuck and worthless.

On top of the real life problems Im having, my mental health is plummeting. I can't even begin to explain it all but I just feel defeated. I never thought that this would be my life and who I would become.

I forgot to mention that I can't get my license until im 18 because I need a proof of attendance from my school which I don't have. Obviously.

I do have plans. I want to get my GED, get my license and then I guess just work until I can pay for tech school to become a medical assistant. But all of this seems so far away and I'm drained and don't see a purpose to anything.

I guess I just needed a place to vent.

I can't really talk to anyone about these feelings and I feel like I have no support system. Thanks for reading, if you did.