I'm so sad this pregnancy is almost over... my life has been a hot mess falling apart straight up soap opera since 2 months before we even got pregnant. I feel as tho I haven't gotten to enjoy this pregnancy at all. And it makes me so sad because she was sort of planned... we had been trying for almost 2 years I just finnaly got pregnant at the worst time possible.... but I figured despite everything since she was planned unlike my first I would be able to enjoy the pregnancy more this time... and that has been far from the facts. I'm so sad I've been so focused on my joke of life I forget I'm carrying a beautiful baby girl and the only time I'm focused on her is when I'm going to my weekly appt because of all of her complications. 😥😥😥😣😣😢😢😰😰 I really hope when she gets here everything will fall into place because pardon my French fuck 2019. But I am so excited that despite all the hell I've been through this year I'm gonna get a beautiful baby girl to remind me to be strong and that good things can come through pain.