My heart is still broken that i lost my baby in July. This was my first actual miscarraige. Who knew it would happen to me, i mean i had two babies before and both pregnancies were healthy as can be and i now have two beautifull children. We were so happy and excited for the third and didnt think for a second something could be wrong till i had my first scan at 9weeks. I still remember my drs face as she said it doesnt look good, baby stopped growing and there is no heartbeat. I was in tears sobbing i mean i lost the child that was already loved and wanted. Im still struggling cause i will never know him or her. My inlaws dont get what im going through and that its very hard for me. Anyways im craving to get pregnant A.S.A.P. But im petrified.... what if this happens again!!! But one thing is for sure i wont tell a soul if i am pregnant again till i know baby is healthy and i know the gender.