We've been ttc (inconsistently because of scedules) for about 6 months. I am over 40 and feel time is running out.

A few weeks ago our dear, but troubled neice asked to stay we with us toward the end of her pregnancy. She's currently at a sober living facility and doing well in her sobriety. Of course! I'm pro-choice and want every choice open to her, we love her and want what's best.

I imagine long conversations about life. Maybe she wants us to adopt her child? Maybe not. Maybe she's just able to take a deep breath, get her bearings and put her own life together. I'm in favor of either.

Then she asks about what our guestroom looks like and can she buy things to personalize it. Well, yes but it seems wasteful. She should save money, I tell her.

She's started announcing on Facebook. Proud explanation points. People congratulating her and saying she'll make a great mom.

I'm starting to think this is going to be emotionally very difficult. No loving guidance and help navigating. Instead I'll be driving her to appointments and argue that no, she cannot raise a family in our spare room. I'll be the villain in the story.

I realize that I'm overreacting. I don't want to steal her baby or wish bad things on her. I want things to work out the best! Yes, I'm jealous but I'm also a grownup. I can be jealous and still not act out and be petty.

I needed to write this down. I needed to tell someone. Thank you for reading. Let me know if you have any advice or support!