I exclusively pump and bottle feed my breast milk. Any mama out there who is breast feeding or exclusively pumping knows how annoying it can be that you can’t just trade off to your partner some of the feedings for SLEEP because you have to provide the food OR have to pump to keep your supply up with your baby’s demand... Every. Time.

I don’t think I’ve slept a full night in 9 months mainly because I had to pee a million times, had heartburn, or the baby was just pressing so low I couldn’t sleep through the last three months of pregnancy and also cause... breast milk now..

But sometimes I just want to bitch about it. Yes. It is my decision to use breast milk instead of formula... yes. I am choosing this not only because it’s healthy, but also because it’s FREE. I’m cheap. I admit it. Formula is EXPENSIVE AF!!! For all of you who can afford it. I am jealous... if it weren’t for the cost.. I’d totally switch over now because fed is best.

My friends and family tell me “ you’re choosing to put yourself in this situation so just deal with it” or “your sanity should be worth the money” umm no... I’d rather save the money for her college or something more useful and deal with the headache..

Just let me bitch for a few minutes and then we can all move on. Don’t make me feel like shit for just wanting to vent a little about something that yes I have control over, but also isn’t so cut and dry on how to resolve my frustration.

Yes I do have a small freezer stash so I could let my hubby take over for one feeding BUT anytime I skip even one session during the day for an event or something comes up at work... it literally takes me weeks to get my supply back to even just matching how much she’s eating per day... 😐

(Patiently awaiting one year old when I can fully ween her off the boob juice!)

End rant.