How dissapointing

5 days before AF and I wake up bleeding. I guess I'm out this month. I don't know why this is so hard! We got pregnant I our first try in November but it was ectopic, now it seems like we just can't make it work. I know my husband is disappointed too, but it seems momentary for him. I sit here with this deep sadness knowing that had my first pregnancy been successful I'd be due this month. That thought is crushing.