You made a post and it's gone before I could put this in the comments. Here is my reply. I hope you see this. My heart hurts for you...

Girl...YOUR MOM IS THE PROBLEM HERE. Has she talked to you like this your whole life? I feel like she is the reason for your eating disorder. Listen...this is your mom. Someone whose opinion and words mean a lot. She was your role model growing up. If she said these things to you as a kid, no wonder it grew to such lengths. When someone so important in your life belittles you and makes you feel like shit and believe their words, you will follow their advice because you want to prove to them that you are good enough. STOP IT NOW. Fuck your mom. Shes a god damn bitch. Girl, I weigh 160lbs and I'm 5'10. I could lose 10-20 lbs and still be okay because I have some extra weight from my pregnancy yet. But YOU dont need to lose any more weight. Personally I think you should weigh 130 or more. Dont you see, you had an eating disorder where you were severely underweight. Now, your actually EATING and doing good for yourself and your mom is TEARING YOU DOWN by calling you fat and saying you need to lose weight?! What a shit ass fucking mother. She shouldn't even be one. Shes PURPOSELY putting you back in a position to starve yourself again. Your mom is the problem. YOUR MOM, IS THE PROBLEM. I suggest cutting off ties with her. Or you tell her to go see a therapist and I suggest you do too. Because this kind of mental abuse from a parent is fucking outrageous. Please, eat. Dont listen to that women. She doesnt know right from wrong, let alone how to be a mother. Save yourself before your mother ruins you and everything your beautiful soul is. 💕