Handful of emotions

Hey girls ❤️ .

So here’s the deal I’m not sure if it’s just because I’m pregnant or if it’s some kind of postpartum depression I’m starting to get .

I have a 9 month old I got pregnant fairly quickly she was born in November I got pregnant January. LADIES IF YOU DONT WANT KIDS BACK TO BACK BIRTH CONTROL LOL .

Anyways Im scheduled for my c section oct 8th . Im at point that I wanna cry and yell , I feel so big & ugly . I love my girls & im very thankful , but I’m scared I won’t be able to do it that im going to go crazy . I feel like once I give birth I’m going to fall into a depression bc I don’t think I was ready for baby number two .

I’m not alone I have my husband and sisters . But I don’t wanna seem like I’m complaining or have them think other wise . I’m scared honestly fucking scared . I don’t wanna open up then my husband think I’m nuts . I’m also a stay at home mom my daughter now is super easy to deal w unless she is having one of her days .

I know I’m jumping al over the place with this post , I’m not good with expressing myself . I feel like I’ve lost control and normally I have control . I guess in a way I’m venting ...

Anyone else feel this way ?

Is me just being pregnant w all my emotions?