The more tired I am, the more resentful I become. Parenthood is no walk in the park of course but I feel so jealous of everyone that tells me their baby sleeps for a couple hours at a time. My daughter won't sleep alone and never really has. She's slept for 4-5 hours at once on two occasions, she doesn't like to lay or even sit in her cot. In the evenings I never have any time to myself, worst case scenario I'll be trying to settle my daughter from 7pm-2am. I'll be lucky to get an hour to myself, sometimes I'll be able to wash dishes and the she's awake again. If it was up to her she would be attached to my boob the whole time. It is tiring, I express all the time and she won't drink it. She might drink a couple sips and then that's it. She won't drink formula and she throws about 10 tantrums a day. Today I think we're on number 15. She used to sleep when I took her for walks now it doesn't really happen. I can just hear my partner watching TV and having the time of his life. He'll pitch in every once in a while, if I'm lucky I'll get to maybe comb my hair and then my daughter wants me again. I'm told not to stress over the fact she doesn't want to eat anything,but it just means she'll be more attached to my boob again. Then I have everyone asking when I'm having the next one and I want to cry. I actually don't want to have sex again. I love my daughter, I know this won't last forever but I'm tired of it all. I see people having baby's everywhere talking bout their lives changing for the better. I don't have the support I need and I'm tired of asking for it. I wish I could feel the same as the mothers obsessed with their children, I feel trapped and I miss my old life so much. I know I'm a good mother, I do my very best for my daughter everyday cos I want her to have a good life. I'm just tired. It's been a long year, sometimes I just want to be in a room by myself and cry it out

Or scream. Sometimes I just want to straighten my hair or make myself look good without my make up being stolen.