August 11, 2019

I am in love with my brothers best friend. He has a girlfriend who I will see quite a bit throughout the upcoming school year. Our families are close and live on the same street. Part of why I can never date him is because his 19th birthday is today and I will turn 15 in about a month. Him and my brother graduated this year, but his girlfriend graduates next year. The girlfriend is going to be my teammate, so I don’t want bad blood during the season if she found out that I like her boyfriend. I try to tell myself that I should just let this crush go, but I can’t bring myself to. I have liked him since we were little kids running around the house playing nerf. I hate to admit it, but I have fallen in love with everything about him. I know that I can never have him, he will never be mine.

(Me drowning in my tears)

UPDATE!!!!

I now have a boyfriend of my own🙌🏼 I realize that I can never stop loving my brothers best friend, but that’s ok. The crush has died down considerably since I started dating my current boyfriend. He did breakup with his girlfriend for good, but I still knew it was wrong. I’m so thankful to have successfully made it through this tough dilemma, and I was able to maintain our friendship.