So tired of this

Kristen

For five years my boyfriend and I have been absolutely perfect t and absolutely terrible together. In the last two years we’ve been extremely rocky, but we have a daughter (3 in October) is we’ve managed to work things out. New baby girl is due in 6 weeks. He drinks more than I can handle, and isn’t as hands on with our daughter as I think he should be. I stay at home and he is the sole financial provider in our family. He says he raises our daughter 80% and me 20%....... because money.. Last night he was drunk and acting foolish and I told him I disapproved and he got super mad and went off on me. Telling me how HE raises our daughter and I’m not shit. I don’t work, I’m lazy, I don’t clean and his mom and my mom have done it for the last month (I’ve been on bedrest so I asked them for help). He doesn’t clean, he can’t even put his dirty work clothes in the hamper. Brought it up last night and screamed at me telling me he will never clean, cook, or do laundry ever. He also told me that “at least I haven’t gained 5 sizes since we met”. I am a very small person (110lbs and very lucky with the way my body looks). He knows I’ve been struggling with the weight gain and changing body for the SECOND time with HIS CHILD. Mind y’all, he isn’t skinny, he isn’t muscular. He’s not bad, actually looks good but has no right to judge my size. I was a 00 when we met nearly 6 years ago and am now somewhere between a 2-4. My stretch marks make my self conscious. He moo’s and oinks at me, even after I’ve told him I didn’t like it. Mentioned how I’ll have a bowl of cereal before bed even after eating dinner. He called me worthless and told me I dont contribute anything and I’m just living off of him. When he and I met I was assist Tea Hong at a school for children with disabilities making decent (not great, but decent) money. When we decided to have our daughter I worked until the day we went to have her, and took time off to be at home with her from there on after we BOTH agreed. I’m so hurt and aggravated. And this morning he apologized for last night but all I said was “you’re not sorry” and he got mad at me for being upset. I said it because this happens a lot. He ISNT sorry. Maybe I should’ve made up with him. I just needed to vent.