A while back in the end of October into November I was still in a mental state of trying to patch back what happiness I had left. Long story short I was still a little depressed. Anyways, I’m past relationships I had felt unwanted and ugly and was told to make myself skinner and try to make my butt bigger and “show me your boobs” and it didn’t really make me feel great. Well I was approached by one of my “friends” who I thought was a little attractive and I hadn’t experienced a relationship in awhile and I wanted to again and see if it was better. Well, over the 6 week period I was sending this guy pictures my hand/arm over my chest I guess was because I liked being noticed for once. Of course though he asked to see more and I didn’t want that at all so I said no. When he got upset he said fine I don’t want to do this anymore. And I regretted wanting more attention but i knew it had to end anyways because it was wrong and I noticed I was being manipulated to try and show more of my body which I’m so thankful I stood my ground. Come February. I tried not paying attention to this guy and one of my old friends starts talking with me. He’s funny and we’ve got lots in common and we’re on the phone every night for hours and I’m happy for once I’m truly happy. And of course I start to like him a little bit and then I realized after awhile i was falling in love. I couldn’t help it, the one moment I wasn’t looking for love and said I didn’t want it anymore and was sure I’d be fine being single for the rest of my life, he pops in. And I told myself I wouldn’t tell him I liked him because I wanted to keep him as a friend and hopefully a best friend forever because he was just such and incredible guy and so respectful and never asked for anything. And then he asks me out and of course I say yes. And now I’m here about 5-6 months later happy as can be as his girlfriend. But I’m afraid that if he finds out he’ll be upset. I’ve lost so much sleep over this and honestly I really just need someone to tell me it’ll be okay. I love him, so much and I don’t know what I’d do if I lost him. And the guy who used me is someone we both see almost everyday when school starts again. I just wish I wasn’t so worried about it. I want to forget what I’ve done but I can’t without reassurance that it may be okay in the end. Please help me out here. I just need someone, anyone to tell me it’ll be okay