I have let my anxiety get the best of me. My life is literally falling apart. I let my license expire, so now I have to get a permit to get a license. I cant get insurance because of my license. I'm 8 months pregnant and have barely gone to the dr. I wanted to find a midwife but the ones I talked with weren't right for me. I dont have health insurance. I feel ok, I've done this before so I'm not too worried but still. My house is a mess. I cant shower because the little guy cries unless I put him in with me and I'm getting too pregnant for that. My husband never wants to come home, he works 6 days a week and then hes pissed at me for the kids and the house the one day hes home. I just want some attention that doesn't involve cleaning or sex. It makes me cringe to think about sex right now. I have an 18mo and hes going through some sleep thing right now and cries until I hold him some nights. I just want a break or something. I left for like two hours two weeks ago and that didn't even make my husband realize something was wrong. He just kept asking if I was done yet. My car had the transmission replaced and now the check engine light is on and I am overwhelmed with my job and he just wants me to quit anyway. I feel like I'll be trapped if I do that and I just feel out of control most days and I am terrified so I dont do anything. I don't know where to even start.