My husband and I just started talking about trying to conceive another baby. We lost our first at 9 weeks, we had seen the heartbeat at the first appointment and then went back a few weeks later and there wasn’t one. I had a D&C the next day. This was in October 2018.

We decided to wait a little while before trying to conceive again. I was very emotional and didn’t feel prepared for another potential loss. 10 months have passed, and I’m still so afraid. We are talking about trying again, which makes me excited, but then I think about how scared I will be the entire time. I can’t imagine going through another loss, but I have this horrible feeling that I am just going to continue having miscarriages. I am terrified. It consumes my thoughts at all times. Has anyone else felt this way? Was anyone else convinced they would have another miscarriage? Finding it so hard to be positive. We want a baby so badly, but I just can’t shake the negative thoughts. This is why we originally decided to wait a few months after the D&C. Guess I just thought I would be feeling more positive by now..