I just made my appointment but it's basically 2 weeks away. I'm terrified about going but I know it's the best choice for me at this time. I have 3 children already. I'm on methadone to get clean from opiates. But part of me is sad about the loss of a possible life. I'm not looking to be judged and I really don't need the negative comments (they help no one). I just want to know I'm not crazy I'm not the only one who feels this way. The father is very supportive of my choice and is going to be there with me. He didn't pressure me to make the decision either way but I think he is hurt by it. I want to be there for him too because it will effect him emotionally too. But how do I do that when I'm hurting so much myself.