My husband and I have been TTC for 4 1/2 years. I want to be one of those who doesn’t care anymore. I think I have convinced myself of that until someone else gets pregnant that I know and I’m secretly broken and angry all over again. Don’t get me wrong I’m thrilled for those individuals that finally have that positive test. I just feel guilty being so upset that I can’t get pregnant myself. My hubby has an auto immune disorder that makes his sperm count close to non existent. I’m sick of hearing at least you have one child. Okay but my husband has no biological children and that doesn’t change infertility and the turmoil and depression accompanied with it. I just want to not feel emotions behind another period of my own or someone else’s pregnancy announcement. I am sick of hearing it will happen when you relax and stop trying. We stopped trying six months ago and I secretly haven’t let it go. I’m struggling this month.