Ugh!!!

Idk what to do anymore my boyfriend wants me to live with him but I already have my home that I built myself and to give up my trail riding business to be with him I love him soo much and I love what I’ve done for myself and he’s always getting mad about me never spending time with him and not being able to see him but I have no vehicle and I’m trying to save so I can get a car to start school in the fall and he keeps saying I’m never there and I don’t love him but in reality he left for a month on a bender and ugh I do what to do I’m on anxiety medicine now and I’m freaking out please someone talk some semse into me 💔😭