So I have very very low self esteem, always have but it’s worse since I’ve lost weight and can’t seem to gain in back....

Bit of a back story... I have always been very thin but working nights I lost 10 pounds which doesn’t seem like a lot but I went from 95lbs to 85lbs. I don’t even like the look of myself, you can see every bone... and people are sure to point out just how skinny I am!

So last night my husband and I got frisky ( this doesn’t happen very often ) we even pulled out my toy. It was great! I felt good about myself and the fact that he wanted me. This morning I went to go on the tablet to check grocery sales and as soon as I turned it on.. porn popped up.. my husband was the last one on the tablet and it was about 20 mins before we got frisky, he had taken it into the bathroom with him so he could play his games while he “pooped”... so now I feel as if he wasn’t turned on by me at all... he needed to watch porn first...

Now I have no problem with him watching porn.. I’ve even offered to watch with him, but when I’m in our bed half naked why does he need to watch it? Am I not good enough?

Talk about lowering my self esteem even more