Depression/Anxiety and Frustrated 😭

Sadie

I've been feeling really crappy lately and I swear everything I do messes up everything. I bring my two friends who are girls to my boyfriend's parents house to hangout near them and he gets yelled at and he bitches at me for something that I can't help. Idk what to do. I am so stressed already and whenever I do or say something he gets yelled at for everything I do. It's ridiculous. This shit is ruining our relationship and we've been together for almost 3 years now. He needed to do his school work on a timely manner and we had my friends with us but I don't understand why hanging out in public even is a huge ass problem. I thought it was just sleepovers that was the problem but now I guess everything is. Like fuck man. I can't hangout with my friends for a few?? I fucking feel stuck and suffocating and everything. Like even with my parents when I do something they think he made me do it or he was the one to do it and I can't deal with the stress or bullshit drama. I am giving them money that I owe even though what they're asking for isn't even close to my job income. Like I don't make what they are asking. I even am struggling with gas because of it to get to work and back and spend time with my family or friends and he gets bitched at so he gets pissy with me all the time. I don't know what to do anymore. Like this is making my depression and anger and anxiety and everything so much worse. Any advice?? Let me know please this is killing me because I feel like such a shitty person and everything. 💔