I love that I can still be home with my 3 month old and I have more time with him before I go back to work, but I feel kind of like a failure. I'm a ftm and I am still struggling all day/night. I can barely keep myself fed and clean when I am alone with baby all day. Sleeps and naps are still a struggle despite swaddling, dark room, white noise, appropriate wake times, etc. And my baby is not content to be alone and not held for very long. I see other mamas talking about how well their babes are sleeping, pics of all their fun outings, and how they're getting on with their exercise routines, and all I can think is How?! Please tell me I'm not alone.