I am so sorry.

I’m sorry that you tried so desperately to fix everyone else you forgot you are the one that needed it. I’m sorry that I never healed, I never even gave you the time to try and heal. I let myself put everyone else back together and forgot that I’m bleeding out. I’m sorry that smiling hurts now and that was the only way to make people not worry. I’m sorry that someone will never be there for you the way you were for them. I’m sorry for the days you sit in your car and cry and no one bothered to understand why. I’m sorry that I never loved you the way I wish I could, the way you deserved.