I wish I could share a happy story but after 23 months of ttc, I still got a BFN today. I promised, I wouldn't test and wait it out but I gave in today and got a BFN. I didn't use FMU and it was only a 2 hour hold urine but I am 2 days late for AF so I know, if I am pregnant, it would have been a positive already. I don't think I even ovulated this cycle but you know that feeling when you are still hoping that a BFP will surprise you one day and prove to you that things will come unexpectedly.

I ran into a friend of mine who is pregnant after 6 months of ttc (not long enough but told me how she felt pressured by her family), and another friend finally gave birth to her first after 6 years of trying. I realized how a lot of women had to suffer from infertility. My friend (one who tried for 6 years) shared how she cried almost every night praying to have even just one baby and it just breaks my heart that there are those who get pregnant easily/ accidentally and doesn't want to keep a baby or wants to abort them. I know they have reasons but I felt that, if those unwanted babies were just given to those of us who cry so much just to have a little one, it would have been easier for both sides.

I am not giving up. It has always been my dream to have a baby, and although it is still as hard as it was and will not get easy, I know I will and we will eventually become mothers. Spreading babydust to all TTC ladies out there! ❤