Why am I like this ??

Ugh my neighbor babysits and I’ve been dreading to go talk to her and ask if she could babysit my LO when I go back to work. Why do I have to be shy???!!! I’m a grown woman. Hate myself for that! I’m afraid of what she’s going to say. I’m seriously thinking I have SAD because I try avoiding socializing with people & now I have a baby, I need to change that. How should I start talking to her when I go visit her ?