"First Time Mommy Syndrome"

Why is it seen as a bad thing to have FTMS?

I'm sick and tired of my family making fun of me for how I care for my child! I have the App to track his bottles, diapers, sleep, and my pumping. I sit in the back seat with him (yes even at 9 weeks) on long drives and extra hot days (we live in FL). I am (probably overly) proud of his growth and milestones. I worry about the little things. I am strict about his schedule. I have him on a schedule in the first place. I spend every waking moment with him. I hold him 80+% of the day. I let him sleep on me during naps.....I can go on but this is already a long list...

My husband had decided that we were not going to have kids....my doctors told me that the chances of me conceiving was so low to not even try. I was depressed knowing that the one thing I dreamed of since I was in elementary school was never going to happen.

And then....I found out (against all odds) I was 8 weeks pregnant.

My husband is (as my grandmother says) "getting fixed". Meaning my son is my one and only baby. And I want to do this right. I want to be able to look back and say I did my best. I want him to tell his significant other how much he loves his mom and how he wants his kids to have a parent like me.

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I just want to enjoy being a mommy. Why is that a bad thing?!