i wrote this almost 10 times and never finished ...

Camila • Became A Wife 7.20.18 💋 Became A Mommy 6.12.19 💋

on June 10 me and my husband go in for an ultrasound appointment not knowing that this was gonna be my last one . we get home at 7:30 pm and im feeling contractions .. they didnt hurt as bad but i felt something . they were 8-9 mins apart . around 9 or 10 they became stronger and closer together around 5-6 mins apart . i call an ambulance and they take me to the nearest hospital . around 11 doctors check me , im at 3 cm but almost fully effaced ... ( i was closed last week at my 35 week appointment ) man these contractions hurt like bitch 😂 but you know i was easing through them . got my husband by my side falling asleep . around like 4 or 5 in the morning my contractions felt like they were getting father apart so they discharged me ( my husband already left like 1 hr and a half before ) June 11th i was home all day with no contractions until that night . that night was insane . i couldnt sleep . every 7 mins i sat up in the bed trynna ease the pain . i was doing that all night , peeing all night . June 12th Wednesday morning , im up early 8 am 😂 i cried for about 30 mins before waking my husband up to come in the shower with me because i was scared to shower alone . 9 am comes around and i feel like i gotta take a mean shit 😅 everytime i had a contraction i needed to shit . now im sitting on the toilet and i feel like pushing the shit out but i dont because i didnt feel like it 😂 my contractions are 2-3 apart , back to the hospital we go . we get there around 10 , my midwife ( in my birthplan i wanted a midwife not a doctor , they seem less frightening ) checks me looks me in my eyes and said " your at a 4 ... yep your not going anywhere " GREAT IM BOUTTA HAVE A BABY TODAY . 🤦🏽‍♀️ i still feel like i gotta poop thou . every nurse in the world was asking me " how far along are you ? " i didnt take prenatal care there , i went all the way to another borough to take prenatal . i yell back " 35+6 " i got two women trynna take blood outta me , one asking me if i want an epidural . yes i was begging for it , originally i wanted it all natural but i just wanted the pain to go away . they finally stick an IV in me and put me in a wheelchair and roll me to the delivery room . my midwife comes in with about 3 people from the NICU team to explain to me that because he's premature he has to go into the NICU . im practically ignoring everything because im hurt and because I FELT LIKE I HAD TO POOP . around 12 my midwife checks me and now im at a 8 . im looking at my husband like " you really did this to me " im yelling for my midwife . she mad funny she was like " sweetheart i hear you loud and clear i was right outside your door " she asked me if i wanted my water broken to speed this up and hell yea i did . 12:30 my water was broken , 12:45 i was checked and im at a 9 . my husband being a dickhead like " ima give it 8 or 9 mins " honestly , the poop felt like it was right about to come out so im telling my husband " Isaiah go get her babe or ima poop on myself " he got her . 12:56 She checked one last time and told me " Next contraction ... push " im like oh shit , oh shit , oh shit . im pushing and pushing . i did shit , i made sure i did that . midwife telling my husband to sit down cus he looking a lil woozy 😂😂 . i feel a head outside my vagina and with one more push i felt his shoulders and rest of his body come out . my son didnt cry , my son sneezed as soon as he came out .

Isaiah Keshaun Edwards Jr was born 6/12 at 1:09 pm . 35+6 , weighing in at 5lbs and 9.6 oz and 18 In long . delivered via a natural birth . no epidural , no stitches .

my mom got there like 5 mins after i finished pushing and after my son peed on all the doctors . i didnt get to have skin to skin with my son . 10 mins went by and the NICU come and swoop my baby up and i tell my husband to follow them . i didnt get to see my son until 6 at night .

i got to feed him every chance i get . he was discharged the same day i was . he had low glucose but regulated by the time we left .

Isaiah just turned 2 months yesterday , and weighs almost 11 lbs now and almost 2 Ft long ( 22 in ) . this is the love of my life and at 19 years old , i was blessed with the best thing that ever happened to me .