I’m Bi. I think. I don’t know yet. I didn’t have my first kiss until almost 16 which I know is normal for some people but the friends that I have / had and the people I hung out with and the situations I get myself in make that pretty abnormal. I’ve never had sex and I’ve never done anything sexual with anyone. I started to think that maybe it was because I want ready or I was just scared but I’m not so sure anymore. The first time I kissed a boy it was great, amazing, I’d never felt anything like it. I thought to myself (like always) I like boys. Because I did. I do. But then I went to a party one day and I had had a lot to drink. Me and my best friend are both very affectionate drunks (you know the type) and one thing led to another and we kissed. It wasn’t anything anyone hadn’t seen before, 2 drunk girls kissing on the lips for less that a millisecond. I thought nothing of it. But then she kissed me again later on that night and although it was the same situation (a tiny peck on the lips and very drunk) I couldn’t help but keep thinking about it. For days and weeks after this party I kept thinking about it. I don’t know. I’d had multiple crushes on many many boys through the years but was this a crush on a girl? No it wasn’t. She was my best friend and nothing about “her” appealed to me romantically, but the idea of being with a girl in that moment didn’t feel any different to how I’d felt about boys in the past. The idea of anything sexual with anyone just doesn’t appeal to me. The thought of losing my virginity scares me, but not in the way that most people would be “scared”. The biggest problem I face is that if I were 100% certain and I were to come out to my friends and family, my family and my close close friends would be okay with it, they wouldn’t care at all and would be so supportive. But my just “friends” friends, like the people I just kinda know and talk to, I feel like wouldn’t be the same way (especially not the boys). I don’t want to ruin my life when I’m not completely sure about this. But I don’t know. But yeah, that’s me. Bi...... but not.