And every since the age of 21 ive been in and out of relationships. Just wanting so bad to settle down with someone for the rest of my life. But that obviously didn't go as planned. I decided I'm just going to give up on relationships the rest of my 20s and just enjoy myself and build myself up and get where I want to be in life. And hopefully in my 30s I'll find the love of my life..I also didn't want to wait til my 30s to have kids but looks like that'll be the plan...it sucks but oh well. I really want real love..someone who wont give up on me and love me fully.