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Ladies who've had a miscarriage and another pregnancy following. How do you cope. I'm currently bleeding again and freaking out that I'm loosing another baby. And of course I blame myself for the bleeding. The what ifs. What I hadn't walked 5 miles or felt good and cleaned all weekend. Did I bring this on myself? How do you stay calm and together when you just want to break down and cry. I dont go into the dr until friday to be checked and know if it is another loss theres nothing to be done. I'm just loosing it and I want to curl up at home and sleep. Its depressing and I dont even want to make dinner for my toddler. So my poor husband is yet again picking up all the slack around here. This is just mentally exhausting. Sorry for the long post I just had to write it out how I'm feeling somewhere. Somewhere people know what I'm going through and may have advice.