I’m just in a down mood. I haven’t seen my boyfriend in a week I know it doesn’t seem like much but we normally see each other 2-3 times a week. He’s grandad has come to visit my bf and his family and so he’s been getting into arguments with his mum about seeing me as his mum says he should be spending more time with his granddad. And I just felt a little disheartened, like of course spend time with your family but I mean seeing him just once sucks. We were going to see each other twice this week because I haven’t seen him since last Wednesday and my boyfriend goes that he got into an argument with his mum saying that it can only be one day. And so I said to him I don’t want him to get an argument with his mum over me and for her to think I’m the one pressuring him. So I said maybe we’ll just not see each other and you can spend time with your grandad like she wants you to. I know I told him this but I’m just in a crappy mood because I go onto a college medical placement for two weeks starting next week so I will only be able to see him on weekends. And I know I said to hang out with his pop but during this week we’ve both been free and he hasn’t been doing anything and he hasn’t made an effort to see me. I don’t want to invite myself over because I don’t want to step on his mum’s toes.

But I just miss him so much and he knows that I’m not in the best mood but he hasn’t made an effort. I don’t know I feel like I’m just being high maintenance but he’s just been saying things like “I can ask my mum if it’s ok to come and see you tomorrow, if she doesn’t want me to I can try and convince her I’m sure it will be fine” and I’m just like to myself you’re 20, I want you to come because you actually want to, and that you have to convince your mum to let you. I don’t know if I make any sense