So ive been with the same guy for five years. We where Long distance for four of those years, visiting eachother every few months. He slowly became emotionally abusive, meaning a lot of manipulation. He was very controlling. Got to the point where I had to drop out of college because I wasn’t spending enough time with him even though we still where on the phone together all the time every day. He fell into drugs pretty hard and stayed in his house all the time just being high, we didn’t have barely anything in common. I couldn’t leave because if I did he would tell me he would kill himself. It started extending further then that, he would tell me how he wanted to hurt every-time I didn’t spend enough time with him. So for a few of those years, that was the only reason I was with him. Yes I loved him, but the only reason I was there was for him to remain alive. I took no happiness at all from it.

Fast forward now. We broke up, he’s finally trying to get the help he needs. We where together sooo many years. And its Only been a week since we broke up. I feel like I’m happy, I don’t miss this man, I even think I could go into a relationship now and not for rebound reasons either. I find myself feeling bad, should I be feeling bad about this? How am I moving on this fast? I feel independent, free, capable. It worries me, am I just going to burst out crying one day? Why am i happy? It was almost five years of my life!