Long story short, I went to Victoria’s Secret today with my best friend and because I’ve been plus size my whole life, nothing in there will comfortably fit me well enough for me to spend $60 on a bra.

Anyway, she has always been super well endowed in her chest and always gotten so much attention from everyone. Being in there made me feel ugly, she makes me feel like I’m not sexy (not intentionally, she’s always tried to build my self esteem), and then mix that with my husband always saying such and such singer girl or tattoo artist is “so hot”.

It hurts to think I’m not “so hot” to my own husband. I stopped asking her to hang out with us together because I felt like he enjoyed looking at her or wished I looked like her. I don’t know if I’m just beating myself up being 10w pregnant or if I’m genuinely upset about it.

Any advice?