Fuck you. Fuck you for fucking me up. You literally ruined me. All the times u beat my ass. YOU DELIBERATELY MADE ME HAVE A MISCARRIAGE AND I STILL STUCK W U. I STUCK W U THROUGH YOU NOT WANTING TO GET A JOB I RUINED MY RELATIONSHIP W MY MOTHER FOR U I RUINED MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BEST FRIEND FOR U I FUCKED EVERYTHING UP ALL FOR YOU . YOU WANTED TO BEAT MY ASS WHENEVER I WOULD FUCKING RELAPSE AND THEN MENTALLY ABUSE ME TO THE POINT OF ME RELAPSING AND THEN REPEATIBG THE CYCLE I AM SO FUCKED UP NOW. I DONT WANNA LOVE ANYONE ELSE I HAVENT SLEPT IN FUCKING DAYS AND FOR WHAT? BECAUSE I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT WHAT I DID WRONG AND HOW I FUCKED UP AND HOW I AM A FUCK UP AND ALL THOSE OTHER NAMES U USED TO CALL ME. I DONT KNOE WHAT TO DO ANYMORE MAN I DONT WANNA DO SHIT BUT BE W YOU BUT YOU OUT HERE DOING THE DRUG THAT I AM MOST FUCKING ADDICTED TO SO I CANT EVEN FUCKING STAND TO LOOK AT U NOW BC ALL I CAN DO IS BLAME MYSELF BC I KNOW I FUCKED UP IN OUR RELATIONSHIP AND I KNOW I WASNT PERFECT AND I KNOW I CAUSED U HURT. BUT U KNOW WHAT YOUR NOT THE ONLY PERSON WHOS HURT IN THIS RELATIONSHIP. YOU THINK IT DIDNT HURT WHEN U PUNCHED ME IN THE STOMACH SO HARD THAT I COULDN'T FUCKING SCREAM BECAUSE I WAS SO SCARED THAT U WAS FINNA KILL ME. U THINK IT DIDNT HURT WHEN I GOT MY ASS BEAT AN THEN CAME TO U FOR COMFORT BUT INSTEAD U BEAT MY ASS IN THE FUCKING HOTEL ROOM. U THINK I WASNT HURT WHEN YOU BEAT MY ASS DAMN NEAR EVERY DAY FOR THE LAST 3 MONTHS OF OUR RELATIONSHIP. U THINK IT DIDNT HURT ME TO KNOW THAT THE MAN I LOVE HURTS ME AND FUCKS ME UP SO BAD THAT I FELT I HAD NO OTHER FUCKING CHOICE EXCEPT FOR TO FUCK MT SOBRIETY UP OVER AND OVER AGAIN. U THINK IT DIDNT HURT ME TO SIT IN JAIL FOR 2 FUCKING MONTHS AND KNOW IT WAS UR FAULT BUT STILL NOT CARE BECAUSE I WANTED U SO BAD. I WISH I WOULD HAVE NEVER FUCKING MET U. I WISH I DIDNT LOVE U. I WISH I DIDNT FEEL ANY OF THIS. AND YEA I KNOW YOU ARE THE ONE WHO GOT ME CLEAN IN THE FIRST PLACE BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I WOULD HAVE GOTTEN THERE MYSELF. THE ONLY REASON U GOT ME CLEAN WAS TO FUCKING ABUSE AND CONTROL ME.