Alright, So I went out with a friend about three days ago and things turned out to be not what I was expecting 😂 We planned to get Ice cream and catch up, but after we got our ice cream things escalated quickly....

So we ordered icecream and went back to the car to talk and kinda “relax” and just talk. We have done this before and it has always been just friends talking, but this time, amm he was a little bit more flirty 👄 here I go...

He began hugging me apologizing for not talking to me in a while and I pretended to be upset 🤷🏽‍♀️ I mean why not? Right? Haha, he hugged me even tighter and softly moved my face near his and he began ¿sweet talking?(I’m not a pro, okay) and suddenly while my face is centimeters away from his he asked me “do you want to miss behave?” And that gave me the butterflies and I replied “yeah, why not” and so he made the move and kissed me.

He moved his hand slowly through my upper body reaching my hair and began to slight lying pull it. (that automatically made me want to go a little further?) he was being gentle, but dominant at the same time and I enjoyed that 🤷🏽‍♀️ but i wanted to play hard to get, so I pushed him away and began to flirt back and tease him.. I guessed I teased him enough cause next thing I know he just pulled my face near his and pushed the seat back. I let myself go and I’m seconds he was on top kissing me .

He was trying to place his hands all over me and I wanted him to, but ... I haven’t had sex in three years, So I kinda panicked 🤷🏽‍♀️😭😭 I pushed him off and he thrown off, but that didn’t stop him and he kissed me again after reassuring me we would go as far as I felt comfortable goin. And so he kept kissing me and when things got too hot he was like “ hey we should move this to another place...” to which I responded “where?” And he wanted to go to his place. But I wasn’t ready 🤷🏽‍♀️😭😭 so i just told him to take me home 😭😭 and so we drove home still kissed and had fun, but nothing more happened .

So for the past days I have been reconsidering trying to have an active sex life🤷🏽‍♀️ I haven’t had sex in such a long time cause you know I didn’t wanna be with people I don’t know 🤷🏽‍♀️ but after that day I definitely can’t stop thinking about starting again😭 am I the only one????