Mc on my birthday last night 🥴

I really wanna know out of all days it really had to be my birthday 🤦🏽‍♀️ just turned 20 last night and this is my 2nd Mc from May. I was going to have my first ultrasound tomorrow but I guess not 🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️ im really starting not to gafff about anything anymore!! I told God I’m claiming this baby this time and he took it ... I seriously don’t know what I’m doing wrong to deserve all of this I do all the right things in life and still have a bad life ..