I’m in a tough spot mamas. please read if you have time

- I’ve been watching a little boy for a year now, and I have a daughter the same age. They are two now. For a long time now they have not got along, fight all day, he’s really hard to handle bc he throws A LOT of tantrums and also hits my daughter all day long.

- she got pregnant again and asked if I would watch the baby too. I told her I was nervous about having three of them all day, but that I would give it a shot. I said I would let her know if it was overwhelming and she said okay

- before she even had the baby she took an internship in my town so that I could I could watch her kids. She lives 30 mins away. She didn’t talk about this with me first and said it would make it easier (really tho, it would make it easier for her , not me, I would still be home alone with 3 young kiddos regardless and would probably have them 5 days a week instead of four) :(

- the baby is here and I am overwhelmed everyday. I’m 17 weeks pregnant and more tired from being pregnant. The baby is 3 weeks and clusterfeeds all morning and wants to be held all morning. The kids still fight. My daughters nap routine is all out of wack and she acts out when the baby gets attention. There’s three diapers to change and my daughter is starting to potty train so there’s sometimes a potty that needs to be cleaned. Bottles to make, meals to make AND housework. I’m sure lots of people could pull this off but I feel like I’m drowning and I dread everyday now!!

- I feel so much pressure to keep babysitting bc she took that internship however it’s not what I want or need. The money is not worth it anymore :( I was thinking I would give her a months notice. But I feel horrible. Advice ? How do I tell her ? 💔