Being a mum for the first time is challenging, I definitely pictured my new chapter in life to be more laid back. But here I am, trying to come to terms that my new role is a life long challenge. I knew I wanted a family though I talked about how kids come with a whole lot of baggage and people would say, "once you have your own, you think differently" actually I don't (yet). I might be horrible to think at times, it was a mistake, although it was planned to get pregnant. I might be one of those selfish people who would rather be responsible just for themselves. Or are my hormones talking? I can't say this outloud to people I know because I'm sure I'll be judged harshly.