I feel like I’m mourning...

My husband wants to wait to try for our next baby. Like a solid year + and I can’t even imagine waiting that long ... if we tried now all our kids would be 17-19 months apart so it would be perfect but we are going to move into an RV and full time next year so he wants to wait and have that first before we have another which I totally get. But I am seriously depressed about it. My fever is at an all time high, I’m so obsessed with having another it’s consuming me. I stay a home so it’s hard not to think about... I am trying to convince him of an earlier date it usually works ( worked the last 3x) lol ... but he is being stubborn.