In 2013 I was only 13/14 I was someone for a year and it was a year of torture literally I was used and abused at the time my mum was dying and couldn't tell her anything about it my dad knew what was happening as he caught on and didn't help me at all then one day the worst came to happen I was at his house and everything was fine his mum invited me for dinner so I went and after we went to watch a film upstairs and that's when it all happened he forced himself upon me it wouldnt be the first time he did this to me and I kept telling him to get away from me but he wouldn't listen he started to choke me and tried to suffocate me after he finished he sat and cried at the bottom of the bed I had the worst pains in my stomach ever I started bleeding so bad I was crying my heart out I tried to move but I couldn't walk I started throwing up i got his mums partner to take me home as something was right he helped me get inside and said bye but after that I collapsed to the floor I couldn't walk talk or anything I was having the worst pains ever in my life I tried to have a bit of food and drink but it didn't help my older brother shouted at my dad that he thinks I'm having a miscarriage but my dad didn't believe me I dragged myself upstairs to the bathroom and ran a bath and that's when it all happened blood was pouring out of me and after an hour of having horrendous pains I felt like I needed to push so I did and then the pain eased off a bit and there was my baby I didn't know what to do I was crying my eyes out wanting to scream my anger and upset out but I couldn't as nobody knew about it but me I couldn't tell anyone because I constantly got threatened that if I told I'd be dead so I kept it secret I buried my little one later than night when everyone was in bed and told my mum and dad about what happened a couple of days after it happened my mum broke down crying saying why didn't I tell her sooner and my dad said that he already knew it was happening the lad got so close to being put in jail but he got bailed out and walks free I can't cope I have I daughter now who's nearly 2 and with someone who's treating me amazingly but I just can't get over it all it's like it's suffocating me every single day