12 dpo and a big fat negative

I’m SO disappointed. I think every single month I convince myself that this is the month but this month I reeeeeeally convinced myself. Like I was completely sure and all I needed was to see those two beautiful lines to confirm it to the rest of the world. But nope! 2 years ttc and counting. I just want to go lay in bed in a bundle of blankets and not emerge for a year.