I am in bits tonight, I’ve just sat for hours in a hospital while my younger sister gave birth to a beautiful baby boy and I love him already but I am so jealous and bitter and hateful right now.. I just want to curl up in a ball and never leave my bed again..

It’s not fair at all.. he was an accident.. she didn’t even want kids..

my partner works nights so I’m here alone battling with a whole range of emotions.. sobbing my heart out with jealousy..

just looking for some support from someone that understands the strength it took me tonight to hold that baby.. kiss his head.. fall in love.. and hand him back and walk away empty handed..