OKK SOOO JUST LISTEN

So I’ve been talking to this guy since February. He was my best friends ex boyfriend and she sent my snap to him Bc I was complaining how I didn’t have a boyfriend. So me and him got really close and I started to really fall in love with him. Like I haven’t before. And then after I realized I was falling for him I started to push him away but I’d always end up coming back to him. We never actually met in person we just FaceTimed a lot. So my friend and me were supposed to go to the mall and meet him there. But then me and my friend got in an argument and haven’t talked since. So I pushed him away again. This time he fell for another girl so I unadded him on snap. He didn’t even care. I know I’m stupid for letting him go and everything so please don’t give me hate :/