This is going to sound so weird but it is what it is. It all started in 5TH GRADE. I was exposed to sex and porn and all of the above when I was like 6 so I was way too advanced for

My age.. I was already masturbating and watching porn on my own at 11yrs old... so I was in 5th grade and I had a male teacher, he was probably in his early-mid 30’s and I can remember having sexual thoughts about him and how good his arms look when he would fold his sleeves up (he never showed any sexual interest in me, I was just a regular student to him, just clearing things up). So then 6th grade came, i had boobs now and some hips and always had a butt, so I had a male math teacher, I would flirt here n there and even caught the teacher “looking” at me in various different times... but I LOVED it at this point I knew it was some sort of fetish or sexual fantasy I had, maybe because I had seen the “teacher fu*** student” videos in porn sites.

HAnd this literally went on until my senior year of high school, even if the teacher weren’t the best looking I just found something about them so sexy... and the ones I really like always seemed to show interest in me back. I knew I wasn’t just imagining it because they would say little discreet comments or would give me certain looks for example, one of my teachers in 12th grade asked me out of the blue one day “you are 18 right?” And I said “yeah..why?” He said “oh okay just wondering” and gave a little smirk

maybe he was just trying to make sure it wasn’t wrong to have some interest in me.. since I was indeed his STUDENT lol and one even went as far as giving me a back massage in class! And you guys know that friendly teacher pat on your shoulder or back they sometimes give? Well let’s just say a few would do that and drag it down pretty far back to my lower back. I know too because one day my boyfriend at the time picked me up from school and flipped out because he caught one of my teacher (that I was very much interested in) check me out (looking at my ass)

Has this only happened to me? Or does anyone else understand where I’m coming from??

All of these teachers were mid 30’s to early 50’s

And all very respectful and didn’t do anything until I initiated the flirtatious actions.

Don’t come at me or the teachers 🙄 it was all harmless.

*always fantasize about doing it on their desk... sorry I’m done 😩😂🤫