Being a stay at home mom is not easy. I'm a mom of two. A toddler and a newborn, so my hands are pretty full. My newborn is two weeks old..so that means two weeks of no sleep, constant feeding, crying, screaming. Add a toddler and that also means no time to eat, nap, clean, have a second to myself. My s.o works full time and is tired himself, so not alot is help there. I feel like a crazy person because all I've been doing is crying and screaming. I hate this side of myself so much. I hate getting mean and ugly. I hate that my kids and my s.o see this side of me but I can't control my emotions. My mom doesn't help by reminding me my toddler is bored and I get that, but what am I supposed to do with a newborn and no car? and even if I had a car, it's like 100 plus degrees out and I'm not gong anywhere in weather like that with two young kids. I don't fit in any of my clothes, I'm still walking around in maternity clothing because that's all that will fit. I'm still recovering from a c-section and leaking breast milk 24/7. That doesn't help with the self esteem. Being a mom is fulfilling and rewarding but at the same time it's also so very isolating and lonely. You forget to take care of yourself because there are others more important who need caring for. I know there will come a day I'll miss them so small but that doesn't make it any less difficult right now. I send love and hugs to all moms feeling like this right now. You're not alone.